Your Life Not Theirs
”You are the one who has to die when the time comes, Not anyone else.” -R.E.V.
Why Care
“If they don't care, why should I? - Because it's your life.”
Imagine you were given a jar of sand on the day you were born, and as soon as you took a breath that sand is begun to pour out of the jar. You were not given control of this jar until maybe age two or three. After that point how much sand you chose to dump out was your choice.
Playing a game of Tag, Enjoying a game of Dragons and Quests, Savoring a Popsicle on a hot day, Crying when something Didn't work out, “Chilling” when you wanted to Play, Losing out on Laughter for Someone else's plans, Staying in your room because nobody cares, Coming up with plans to empty all the sand from the jar at once.
All this time the sand continues to pour, and certain things cost much more than others.
Now, if you take a look in the jar, how much sand do you have left?
All the Sand
As much as we all want to live forever, we only have the sand that we were given to begin with. We can either make it to the end of the jar, or waste the sand we've been given. Either by dumping it out on things we don't care about, or all at once because we can't keep carrying the weight.
Freedom
“I've found there is always time to stop and admire anything shiny, Not Even Pretty but always shiny.” - The Owl
The only way to use all the sand in the jar, is to live as your heart desires. If you want to say nothing excites you, that's fine, find something. Go try everything you possibly can until something makes your heart feel alive. Try everything that sparks your curiosity, and Don't worry about whether its right or wrong in everyone else's eyes. How you feel about it, is what counts. Because it's your Jar of Sand/Dirt.
Just Begin
"All we can do is decide what to do with the time given to us." - Lord of the Rings.
Steps to start living.
Take one breath in through your nose, out through your nose. Then two quick nose inhalations and out through the nose. Now your mind is in sync with your body.
Next squeeze the end of each fingertip 36 times, this stimulates the organs they are attached to. You don't have to believe it, just try it.
Lastly stand up, spin around 3 times. You should be slightly dizzy and lightheaded. Good. Now go do something, anything, but leave the room you are in and go do one thing. tomorow maybe 1.5 things. Next day maybe two maybe 3.
But you must take the first step.